Swollen Tongue 
It’s been that kind of day. Your 
girlfriend, in from Milwaukee, woke 
with a swollen tongue, unable to spit 
or swallow, but maybe able to talk, 
our eight year old tells me later. Pulled from under 
covers, untangled, I drove 83 miles to relieve you 
of our sons. They had been with you nearly 
24 hours. Too long. Your reasoning: 
something about $3.00 in gas she had 
no car she flew here we are moving to 
Wisconsin together tomorrow temporarily and if 
you are getting remarried anyway, we would 
like to live in your house just deed it back. Her tongue 
is what? Three dollars 
won’t get you to 
your destination. The line I drew 
2 years ago is beginning 
to blur. You know nothing of my repeat 
mammogram tomorrow, of dense 
heterogenous fibroglandular tissue or 
nodular asymmetry present in the anterosuperior 
right breast, the one that provided consistently
2 ounces less at each nursing, and dried up
2 years before the left. You know nothing of 
the fact that my sister won’t babysit 
tomorrow because she is getting her picture taken 
for the church directory. Of aloneness. 
Of unfortunate dependency relieved only
by the mercy of others. Of the crying in the backseat 
from Knox, westward across I-80, all the way to Mercer, 
for the misrepresentation of both history 
and current events. Of the magnitude of misperception. 
Her swollen tongue is beckoning like an emergency, 
to which I, to which you, to which our children, must 
respond as if it once provided their sustenance. 
April Salzano teaches college writing in Pennsylvania. Her work has appeared in Poetry Salzburg, Pyrokinection, Convergence, Ascent Aspirations, The Rainbow Rose, The Camel Saloon, The Applicant, The Mindful Word, Napalm and Novocain and is forthcoming in Jellyfish Whispers, The South Townsville Micro Poetry Journal, and Inclement.  She is working on her first collection of poetry and an autobiographical novel examining the beauty and pain involved in raising a child with Autism. 
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